Depressing much.

SEPT2. Weee… my first blog in a lifetime. Hahah, NOT! I have a lot of this… stuff, but i’ve stopped since i’ve been busy and all. Anyhoo… since I started this, I think I’m obliged to do this every once in a while so here goes… (LOL)

To start things of, I have this DEPRESSING experience these past few days. You see, our project for midterms is to have our very own music videos with good editing and all. I was very excited then because I am very fond of conceptualizing and all that, so I came up with a perfect one for “Wait for You” by Elliot Yamin (except the fact that it was KIND OF dedicated for someone,) even before I added the class subject. But then, everything turned out unexpectedly, there were some things that didn’t turn out right and I was so disappointed, even after I conceptualized my second one. Until I have learned from my friend the perfect song “Yesterday” by Leona Lewis. But I really wasn’t blaming anybody (really!)… It’s just that circumstances come, and we should be ready for it to happen. My final song was perfect, and I imagined the way it was going to happen, as perfect as the first video I had in mind. The effects, transitions, the video, the setting and all; like I was watching it in my head even before it was being put into a video.

But as I always say, life does funny things to annoy us (heheh,☺). When circumstances came, everything is not the same. And I was like in hell because of it. You see, when I first planned to shoot my vid, fuckn’ circumstances happen, and guess what, it was my 2ND worst enemy, the RAIN (did I mention I hated rain since… forever? Okay, now I did). And now I despised it even more. Every time I plan to shoot my vid, this FUCKN’ RAIN will come. If not the rain, my models don’t have free time and all. And the worst thing of all, I do not have a MAC, I mean, yeah, I have a laptop and all but what can I do?? I wasn’t informed that they were not compatible with MACs (well actually someone told me they DO, so I didn’t do anything about it. And now what? Everything is sooo not right, sigh!). Now, I have to suffer for two whole days in the editing bay just to get my vid done (and A LOooT more days with no sleep, and depression, LOL, bitaw!). And tingnan moh nga naman, just when you thought something was perfect, NA.ERASE ko lang naman ang raw material ko noh? Nung first afternoon na nag edit kami (Tuesday, grr)… And I was sooo pissed off. ‘Coz I already added it into the final intro and I can never bring the perfect one back, again (so now you can say my intro is a mess, in other words DINALIAN, and… pinagbuntungan ng galit? Haha, grrr). And so, what do you expect?? NA.PRESSURE lang naman ko ug taman2 the next day anoh… buti nalang sir was very kind, he extended the deadest deadline. So whole day din, we were editing, starving and absent from our classes. Hahai..

Now see what I mean? What have I done before to suffer this fuckn’ stuff now?? I mean… ing.ana na jud diay ko ka bad before? And now I have to pay the price? Ahahhaahhahah I’m nuts, am I not?? Hhaahai life… I do not know what to do anymore since then… So I said to myself, “Come what may”. So I did, but I think (hahah you think? grrr) it didn’t turn out that good just like the way I planned it. Guess you can’t have everything you want. Hmmm…

But you know what, everything happens for a reason right? But why haven’t I got any explanation from it? I mean, sure, things don’t go your way every time but, why? Bakit ito pa? Of all… this video is very important to me, why? ‘Coz firstly, this is my first vid, and I want it to be special since I really liked the song and the concept. Secondly, because my expenses have gone in large numbers. It was hard as hell for me, seeing your work didn’t pay off. Anyway, lastly, for some reasons, you must not know, heheh (cge nalang gud! It’s something funny… heheh not funny na haha but funny na amazing). And to think, I worked hard for it (okay lang unta qng wala keh chox lang, but NO, I did work hard for it) but this FUCKN’ CIRCUMSTANCES keeps inviting itself in the picture. Grrr… kasuya! Awh, cge nalang, it’s part of God’s plan (and I just can’t figure out what it is), and I know He has a good reason for it. ☺

Anyhoo… to conclude things off, I would like to say… always “expect the unexpected”, always (well, unless if your motto in life is “think positive”, they kind of contradict, explain soon, hehe awh). You never know what destiny has for you, so don’t expect too much, because DISSAPOINTMENT is painful. It’s the worst thing anyone could have these days… mahal ang bugas! Hahah awh, sa daw? Heheh I hate that line.

So till here everyone. Kung naka relate mo padayon gang… balik2 ha?? And thanks for reading. Kung wala, awh… thanks for reading pa rin, naka abot mo dire na part sa akong blog (I know you skipped some parts… dibuh? Hmmm kaw ha, heheh). So seeyah then, hope I’m not busy this week to chika and to share my thoughts and all. So, ‘till next blog?! Heheh Tatah everyone… have a nice life!!!

PS. Comment if you want me to explain the “expect the unexpected”-contradicting skems of things (it’s just my insight on things, hahah philo, awh) it’s kind of tiring you know… hehe.  And don’t mind the grammar and all, everyone, heheh cge nalang gud! ☺

Note: I WASN’T explaining my side (or what happened), nor blaming anyone (or nagpaDUNGOG2, bitaw!), nor hurting anybody (or am I? hahah I hope not). Awh bitaw… I just want to share my thoughts and what’s in my heart… char! And… for the sake of blogging?? Aiii… soreee!! Heheh cge nalang gud!! Awh, thanks for understanding… heheh bleeh… ‘Til next blog!!! -MOOCH